The Meaning of Mariah Carey...to me ....

This is not a review of the book nor this is my opinion of the same. This is a comparison of Mimi's lifestory to mine. Mimi is a living legend, a diva, a classic - by definition of gold standards. She is not only a singer but an artiste, a songwriter, music video director, music producer, movie director, actress, songstress, songwriter, children's book author, adult book author, and most of all a Diva. Mimi's book as i tweeted earlier , you will learn that every touch, feel, smell, taste, sights and sounds, each of them are unique. So learn to treasure it and cherish it every time you get. Each and every detail IS important !!! You will learn that every music has its tale. Every song every tune brings back to the time something happens and why. I really enjoyed that. So as at 29 September 2020 at noon, Singapore time, I received a notification on my gmail that my book is ready for download in Google Books !!! I was ecstatic and can't wait to read it !!! I was in office and I Just finished a Zoom meeting with the Parent Volunteers. I'm a slow reader. i have not read a single book for the longest time. Since I can remember ! I remember buying books for my house so my wife and I can read together when we have the time. But it did not quite happen. Sad. I will come to my house in another post. Like I said earlier, this is a comparison of my life story to Mimi's. Oh how I wish I can make a memoir ! Like Mariah, I first lived with my parents. When I was about 5 years old, I couldn't understand what it was to like to live with my paternal grandmother and why I chose to live with her. I was told that I had "chosen" to live with them. But I only found out many years later that my grandmother had wanted me to live with her as she looked down on my mother who looked really pathetic at that time - pregnant with my younger brother. Much like MC, I lived in a very toxic environment. I lived with my father's siblings who cannot stop bad mouthing my mother. They loved to fight amongst one another and continue to bitch about one another. They would often scrutinise me , they way I walk, the way I talk and I wished I could retaliate. But I didn't until I reached a breaking point when I was a teenager, at 16 I think. I didnt do drugs or drink or have sex at that age. But I did pick up smoking at 14. Something I enjoyed to this day. Unlike Mimi, I am not a singer , I am not a diva , I am not rich but I am a human beng who is looking and still looking for that freedom and eternal happiness. I have been tried many times ...broken down many times and these are the things that made me stronger - mentally and spiritually. I thank god that i have Him to turn to in my times of need. Of course, I will also thank him in my times of happiness though I may forget. He will continue to remind me to this day. Ugh ! How i wish i can lay down my predicaments and life story here ! I really think I should ! Ok but one thing at a time ... U don't know how lazy I am these days. Being complacent has made me fat and lazy... I am grossly overweight now , married and with a kid... and gay ! ugh !!! will come to this in another post too .... ok back to my comparison. Like I said earlier , I am not those things that Mariah is and I actually have a good relationship with my mother. I love my mother and she is everything to me. She is my pillar of strength , my everything. Well in my memoir , I will write about me , of course , very much like Mariah I will begin with my childhood, yes how i was an introvert turned extrovert...very much a coward (and still is) and the need to experiment with new things ...(yes i think I know I was gay when I was 12 but I held on to that thought untill I ORD-ed back in 2002).... I will come clean on my sexual experiences ...how i had my first time ...with whom and why .... I will also tell in my memoir on why I decided to get married still and how I still continue to cheat - with men... I will also tell stories on how I still had my fun despite being married and shit .... I wish I wish I wish !!!