Twenty Twenty

Wow ...this W who is a real cock teaser finally came clean to me... L has been fucking him !!! wow !!! i really feel like crying right now !!! but then again i constantly remind myself that i am nothing ...nothing !!! just when i thought i sawy L's gf, oklah LM lah call her ... on his ig story last night ...n i thought he got some pussy...but he got a male pussy too !!! fuck!!! i know him much longer than W and than suddenly this L has been fucking W? WTF??? All the lies !!! L said he doesnt like ass and that he wouldnt fuck me ... and now what ??? oh god ...im soooo so jealous ... im angry and confused and pissed ....and feel like crying .... haiz...

I have a confession to make. There was a period of time when I keep having dreams of him, I could not sleep because of him and I kept texting him to come over but he just wouldn't. However, he teased me with his cock photos, nude photos , videos of him masturbating and i really cannot tahan. so wat do i do? he keeps wanting pussy and not wanting to fuck me ..sobs.... so u know what i was trying to do ? i went to carousell and i found that they sell black magic potions or minyak dagu/minyak senyonyong in malay. i even tried to do this ! omg!!! even after knowing what bad it will do to me ??? so after listening to malam seram so much from dj kc ...i finally realised i should not do it. i actually dm-ed this seller already and wanting to meet him or her some time in december last year . i stopped myself and told the seller i was not ready after telling him or her that i was not ready. i was scared that whatever i do will backfire on me !!! lucky god knocked some s...

i havent seen L's ig stories with his gf (also L).... *rolls eyes* i know ... i think they have broken up yet again . usually he would come running to me but he didnt ...so i am actually worried ... worried because he could have found someone else ...someone who can blow him better ...someone he could have finally fucked with... anyway...watever ...im always praying that he would be happy , staying sane and sorted and healthy in these troubking times.. one day ..i saw this guy W on his ig stories ...and i noticed that W has been spending quite alot of time with L. so finally plucked my courage to message this W and say "omg u so lucky to have this cutie!"...this W just laughed saying that L is just a friend ...when i asked whether its a colleague ...he didnt say....anyway my gaydar was on point and W is gay with a bf .... when i saw W's ig story again...he is with L and 2 other hunks !!! i msg him to say like wow nice party n shit and cute hunks ...he dared...

he's at it again ...saw his ig stories with another guy ...so lucky ...named W...who is he ? having dinner together ? then what he blows u ? staying at boon keng too . he told me once before that he has a friend who stays at boon keng...

Oh wow ...ok i didnt know where to start. i am writing this again after being so busy much with life and trying to turn my fate into something really good. The last time i tried writing about him, it has been two years !!! and now its suddenly six years since my last post!!! Definitely sooooo much has happened. i just want to write about this special person whom i met sometime back in 2016. a person who does not judge. kind cocky a bit of a liar but definitely very hot and horny. but now i know that he is a good judge of character. found his girl on the same blog and realised that they are so made for each other. so busy with sex and multiple partners and the lying...yes the lying to each other. god knows. so i kind of know him for 4 years now. but i realise that i dont really know him. kinda my fault. coz i told him that its better to remain as strangers rather than as friends. but he knows so much about...where i live where i work what i work as ...