Covid

Finally after 2 years of Covid free, Covid finally caught up with me. Its been two years since my last entry. Now its day 6 and i am covid free. Covid really had me bad. i was down with bodyaches and pains , headaches that come and go, deep cough and the flu. i still feel something in my elbows as i type. my calves too. my chest, rib cage and lower back hurts when i cough and i would feel that my rib cage and calves hurt when i wake up . but today , its all gone. save for a nasal voice , i am as good as new. my son adam is also positive. today is his day 4. u know me and my double life ? it got me really thinking when i come across this video on tiktok about some anonymous people sending their life story in a podcast . i dont know if it really is meant for me. it got me thinking because this guy or girl lost their loving father . but they soon find out that their dad had a secret gay lover and even bought his lover a house. he even had sex with a lot of gay sex workers . this father also left half a million in debt for the wife . the wife told their children to just keep it to themselves. it really got me thinking like is this how i want my wife to find me ? will they be reading my phone or will my son find out ? i know the inquisitive one is only my son. but leading this double life is tiring . and yes the comments i read about james corden might be right . he didn't reveal his identity and its slowly eating him up inside hence he put on a lot of weight due to the bad negative energy that he is feeding on . i guess that's why i am putting on so much weight too . as i lay there sick in bed i did a lot of self reflection but i could not make sense out of it because i really did not want to make sense out of it too . i am very much addicted to leo . i want him more and more and i got really mad when he ghosted me this february. we had so much fun in the years before and that stupid bitch swinata and other stupid bitches really had to ruin it. i rather see him go out with that bitch lizzy . she's a good bitch but unfortunately , she is also in a lot of debt and she's fucking around . how many men is she fucking ? i love reading her blogs with leo on how she is always longing for him and how he makes her cum and all . but i rather her than all those other men that wants him . by the way he has moved from his novena house to this house in one leicester . i found out due to my grindr noticing that he's near almost every other day. my anonymous ig account also follows him and i also see that he is always with his cousin . so i put two and two together and assume that he is now staying with the cousin . he always sunbathed at this condo every sunday so i assume that that is the place . always wanting to live in this high life . btw he was also duped or scammed off of 30K . he has the audacity to ask me to borrow 3k and wants to return me in 2 months. but i really wished i could help him if not for my own problem . haiz...me and JD....i went to borrow another thousand and now i have to pay it back. all because i wanted that stupid shower which i really really want . and that bitch shidah said that her partner would fix it but didnt when i have already paid for all the things . yes i know i would not pay aman for fixing but i would give him some money. but oh well.... never depend on anyone to have something . so i almost got caught after communciating with leo on my anonymous account . he asked me for my name ! fuck ! he saw the shower thing on my ig story and immediately recognised the toilet ! shit ... i did not answer him but i did put him under restricted so he cant see my ig stories anymore but i can see his .... i really miss him ...we already met twice this year ...he tried to clarify about this ghosting thing but fuck he always left me hanging .... i'd love to taste that sweet cum again....