Its hard not to think of him

Its a constant struggle. I will check his ig stories , his ig posts his fb posts, his twitter , now he's got this "tell" thing ...so annoying ...i donno why he's still hanging around this SW guy.... so jealous much ...but according to to this SW they are just pure, clean , healthy friends now ...no more fucking ...but what a fucking liar ! oh well ...may god give me strength to pull this through ....

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