A lot has happened ...

So...many things have happened. i donno where to start. Ok maybe we go with the neverending LSZ charade. You know "the one that i an thinking of?" like always ? forever ? i donno ... *shrugs* i found out that LSZ has this new thing called telonym ..which i find interesting ...and as that serial stalker ...i decided to download that app myself and asked him questions... so how it works is that u can ask this person anonymously like anything ...and just wait for his answers ... so i find it interesting to see if he does lie or not ... apparently i have asked him some stupid rude questions like.."how long is your dick" "are you gay" or "are you straight" ...his answers are surprisingly honest ...but he starts or end off with a "haha" and that makes it look all funny or insincere or just mere lies .... last sunday ...LSZ fell sick ...he suddenly had a bout of sore throat ...and runny nose ...so expectedly he went to see a doctor at healthway novena... (yes thats how observant i was ok?) .... dr john chang i think his name of the doctor ...very handsome and fit ...yes i googled him ...gave LSZ a 5 day SHN... LSZ just could not do anything else and he had to reschedule all his appointments...unfortunately on monday ...i saw in his ig story that he went to the doctor's again ! wow..i hope he's alright! but i noticed that he too has been answering his questions on tell ...so that means he's ok (meh!) after trying to not think of him all the time.... i told myself i should get a massage ...and true enough ...i should call out his name and ig ...this rudy dwyzinata or dwy_hbm...cancelled on me for the fourth time ... and he was really unprofessional about it ...citing that his father fell etc etc ...of coz i was ok until he posted in his ig story that "SLOT CANCELLED" ...availabe now from ___ to ____ ! i was like fuck !!! thats it !!! i message him telling him how unprofessional he was and he was like wow ! angry and retaliated telling me where's my humanity ??? and he wanted me to comve over like right now and he wanted to show me his professionalism ! i was like whatever the fuck for ! so i said and wished his father well .... i really felt like crying coz this is the time when i felt like im not needed ...hey ...i was going to pay good money for a well deserved massage !!! and later that night ...i wanted to have some fun in the office ...also cancelled ... met this guy in locanto and havent met him in like the longest time .... ok back to LSZ..have i told you that he now has a girlfriend ??? Looks like LM has dumped him or he has dumped her ...i donno .... well the new gf is much younger and a true blue vietnamese it seems ... i keep seeing his NDA in the office that he signed and it irritates the shit out of me ... forced him to wish me happy birthday and told him the things i want to do with him but yes ...got ghosted and soon ...i know ...he will just fly away... they all do ...oh well ... i must learn to let him go ...slowly .... anyway ...the other my wife brought our common friend of so many years to come over to our place ...fuck! shes now a fucking life coach !!! well she looks much smaller now ... guess her product works ! its a fucking 3K !!! WTF!!! i know right!!! i really didnt want to get involved but working from home and all makes me feel obliged to do the measurements and shit . and when i did ..that shitty feeling came over me ...my heart started feeling swollen ... and my legs hurt ...all those things she said i could imagined it happening already .. so here goes nothing ...im well on my way ...trying to diet ...im like oh fuck it !!! lets just do it my way !!! ok back to work!!!

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